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october 09, 2005
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1. i was named after my grandmother who passed away of breast & lung cancer
2. my whole name is Mary Chantel Elizzabeth C.
3. i'd rather be named chantel
4. my nails grow really long & really fast, & look like a profestional manacure
5. i take golden eagle claw kunfoo
6. i had so many problems at birth my doctors expected me to be handicaped in some way
7. i think i have a couple mental dissorders
8. my favourite shows when i was in kindergarden were goosebumps, are you afraid of the dark
9. i owned a lot of the novels and had a goosebump backpack
10. yes, i could read 8th grade novels in kindergarden
11. & yes i could understand them
12. since i can read so well, im expected to spell at an abnormal level as well
13. unfortunately, i don't come close to being able to spell
14. i love eating healthy
15. i've been told i eat TOO healthy
16. not true
17. my hair colour, and styling, is 100% natural. it's envied by most
18. my eyes are a unique green
19. they're envied too
20. even with my hair & eyes im not pretty
21. not even close
22. best friends at the moment are angie, hollie, tracy, meaghen, brooke, victoria
23. envied by all, again B)
24. The only person who I've never gotten into a real fight with, and have been steady friends with is hollie :)
25. it takes a hell of a lot to earn my trust
26. my best friends have sucessfully acheived this :)
27. i love to read and i spend a looottt on books each year
28. well..my mom does <3
29. i love old soft rock stuff
30. i've loved it since i was really little
31. and still do
32. i hate when people copy me in anyway
33. more than anything else in this world
34. i don't believe immitation is the greatest form of ....what the fuck ever. i find it hella irritating
35. i have this stomach thing that happens once in a while. where whenever i eat, even a bite, it hurts like hell
36. this thing is so long
37. i don't like hambergers
38. i wanted to get into the best highschool but i said fuck it
39. cause my friends are going to crhs and now i am too
40. plus i would have had to remained in choir to be accepted, and i can't fucking stand that place
41. i'm ditsy
42. i'm jaded
43. i'm small, and probabally weak
44. but im tough and ill beat you up
45. when people meet me they think im fifteen
46. i hate wanting someone i can't have. i think it's devastating
47. i love being peirced . LOVE it
48. and i know ill love being tatooed
49. i kinda like pain, physical, not emotional
50. and im really not afraid to die
51. i feel guilty when i eat fatty foods, or a lot at one time
52. i can't walk out of the house without makeup on
53. i don't cry at funerals
54. i don't cry period
55. i think it's a sign of weakness
56. i remember all my teachers, except for my kindergarden teachers
57. mrs.strict, mrs.meko, mrs.james, mr.g-mr.kissau , mr.holmes, mrs.tetrault, mr.barret-mrs.tobias and now mr lynde
58. i think my teachers biassed
59. i once got lost in a carpet store
60. when i was two
61. i have awesome memory
62. i remember all my halloween costumes
63. kitty cat , witch, angel, pippi longstocking ,dead cheerleader , medevil princess, angelic devil..a lot
64. im not afraid to talk to guys
65. except matt =x
66. im head over heals for that kid
67. and i don't see myself getting over him anytime soon
68. even though we see eachother tweice a year. max.
69. latelty, ive been craving chocolate. A LOT
70. my favourite subject is english
71. i want a unique carrer
72. where i get to get out of the office, have a office, and wear a suit everyday
73. i drink, not get drunk all the time, but vodka at special parties and stuff
74. i don't think its cool, but i lvoe it
74. i can read characters well
75. ill see right through you and eat you alive
76. i fucking adore the song SEX & CANDY!!!!!!!
77. i love canada :)
78. im the girl at the rockshow
79. im insecure but im an amazing actress
80. ill have you believing anything i want
81. i have a hell of a lot of layers
82. im not that materialistic
83. BUT I FUCKING LOVE D&B
84. im not religious. at all
85. i love pickles
86. i love love love love tim burton
87. i think he's a genious who can't be topped
88. same with marilyn manson
89. he's like my idol
90. im hungry now but i can't eat cause ill be going to thanksgiving dinner soon and if you don't eat a lot a lot they yell at you
91. i love the fromage special mtv has at christmas time
92. im a good dancer
93. me and my friends believe my boobs are weapons. dont ask.
94. i own all the clique books. even the latest fourth novel
95. i want to know if glossip girl, this thing in the book, exists, and if so...I WANT IT
96. im scared of squirells. they try to hurt me
97. i love random designs
98. im starting a scrap book next week or so
99. this year for halloween im being an evil dolly , next year im being alive in wonderland - murderer
100. my favourite season is fall
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[sunday
august 28, 2005
at 4:27pm] |
--Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes
Is most of your clothing black?: yes
Do you think about death often?: yes
Do you want to die?: ick
Are you a social outcast?: No
Are you pale?: Yes
Do you like Hot Topic?: Yes
Do you enjoy Tim Burton's Movies? tom who?
Total YES: 5.5
--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard? yes
Do you wear Vans?: No
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: Yes
Have you gotten in trouble with the PIGS: ick not for like anything hard core
Do you listen to punk bands: yes
Do you have any piercings?: yes
Do you like mohawks?: No
Do you wear Band t-shirts: yes
Have you called someone a poser?: yes
Do you think punk rock is awesome?: some
Total YES: 7
--Prep--
Do you say the word "like": yes
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: No
Do you pop the collar?: O_O nooo..
Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: No
Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?: No
Do you like pop music: No
Do you want/have a little dog?: Yes.
Do you spend your money on expensive clothes?: define expensive?
Total: 2.5
--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: Yes
Are you a vegetarian/vegan?: No
Do you own a tye~dye shirt?: No
Do you want peace?: yes
Do you want to save the animals?: yes
Do you think the war is unneccesary?: ick
Is love essential in your life?: ick
Violence is bad: Yes
Do you go long periods of time without shaving?: No
Total: 4
--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: ick?
Do you own "bling bling"?: -giggles-
Do you wear do-rags? : xDD
Do you like hip-hop?: no
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Yes
Do you believe he's alive?: no
Do you like afros?: no
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: like sarcasticly
Do you like to dance?: yes
Do you call someone your homie?:yes
Total YES: 3
--Emo--
Do you cry often? No
Are you emotional?: yes
Do you like soft music: ick
Do people not understand you?: yes
Do you write your own songs?: yes
Is your hair dyed dark?: No
Do you cut?:
Do you own haggard shoes?: No
Do you like Slipknot? yes
Total YES: 5.5
--Jock--
Do you play sports? no not really
Are they important to you? no
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: no
Do you like football?: whatching
Were you considered a bully by anyone?: no
Was the person you bullied a total dork?: No
Do you like to eat meat?: yes
Do you only hang around other jocks?: o_o no
Is exercise important to you?: Yes
Are other people jealous of you?: ya but like...o_o i think they lie
Do you think you're hot?: ewno
Total YES: 3
--Surfer--
Do you surf?: No
Do you wear flip flops year-round?: No
Is your hair shaggy?: No
Do you wake up at 6 or before every morning?: no
Do you own a pair of surfer shorts?: surfer shorts?
Do you have a lot of patience?: No
Do you want to be at the beach right now? yes
Do you hate tourists?: not really. i find them ammusing
Do you have good balance?: yes
Total YES: 2
--Geek--
Do you wear glasses: No
Do you get good grades?: yes
Do you use an inhaler?: not often
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no
Does your mom pick out your clothes?: has my mom EVER picked out my clothes?
Are you on the computer often?: yes
Do you ever get picked on?: no
Do you look forward to go to school?: nooo
Do people laugh at you?: ya but WITH me xD
Total YES: 3
I'm a skatter- punk.
....lmfao
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[saturday
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tomorrow me &&& my bffeaeaeae [x 100000] , snuffles, meet!!!!!!
i'm so excited, i'm almost pissing my pants . wow. this is going to rock everyone's face off. lots of pics, for sure.
okay, so i have my mom agreeing to this agreement ;; as long as i keep everything clean i can get my belly button peirced when we go to maine. Hell. Yes.
So today we went like all over the place, i got up, cleaned, went to wal mart, got a new hair curler & two liquid eye shadow things & eyeliner && a twix bar xD, then my hair appointment which was really at one but we booked it for two, or so we thought, then to this flea market i hated it, it was the worst one ever, then farmer jacks, yumm, thennn too the price club. i got harry potter & the half blood prince, THOSE FREBREEZE AIRFRESHENERS gosh i love them . & two white, soft, fuzzy pillows. so yea.
TOMORROWIMSHOPPINGWITHSNUFFLES!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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like my new layout? the other one sucked, admit it.
so yea my room is almost clean & it has to be clean by tonight or i don't get the pericing. so im cleaning it . spotless. lol.
during the car ride me & my mom talked about my older sister. i think i communicated the fact that i hate her quite well. She's trying to bond & shit but im not buying it. really, she can go to hell. she's a fucking liar to the tenth power & everyone knows it but her.
but on a happier note
ME & SNUFFS ARE MEETING TOMORROW!!!!!! - hyperventalates-
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[tuesday
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mmmkay. so...what was it , sunday night?..i went to my mom's friends house, laura , cause she's like uble cool & went to her mom's for her belated birthday dinner. yum. This pie was like...wow..i like...doubled my body weight with one peice. then i slept over. i slept in the guest bedroom which was darrens old bed. it was a total dude bed. but they're always the comfiest. then we went shopping i got two shoes, one black flat & like another flat inspired...thing o_o. i got a sub then went home, had exactly one minute to pack & went to brookes. that half the time was bull but whatever. but then , hahaha, me & sara, she doesn't go to BMPS anymore, slept on the floor of the tent, & now my neck is so fucking stiff, it's really not cool. but we like almost literally pissed our pants laughing & then they got all jealous because we were having more fun then them. & then they go, lmfao get this, "lets play a game, lets see who can stay quiet." lmfao can you believe that? we bursted out laughing i'm like "k lmfao we're not three. better revise your fucking genious plan kthnx" many many inside jokes made that night lol.
so now i'm at home & my mom's searching through all these cds. & half of the songs wil be really shitty & the other half is like..kool stuff that i listened to when i was like four. but really , it kicks ass. don't think so? thats cause you're not a mind blowingly cool loser like me & snuffles. where is that chick anyway ;). everything better be okay.
but this thursday i get my hair cut :O wait..k...wait no this saturday? THE DAY RIGHT BEFORE ME & SNUFFLES GO SHOPPING!!! HELL YEA BABY. ya but THURSDAY i get a spray tan & we're getting our nails done probabally saturday too xP.
K but get all ya'lls asses on AIM cause i missed you hos. muah
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[sunday
july 31, 2005
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dirty knees from dirty bathroom floors
where she hopes no one can hear
Close all the doors, turn on the taps
and just before you exit, wipe away your tears
Oh pretty baby why do you have your fingers in your mouth
And i think there's more than words stuck in your throat
And the look in your eyes proves you don't have faith in your system
And the help me on your forehead reveals you know what it's about
You excuses for yourself have run thin and out
Maybe if he wasn't so cute , maybe if she wasn't so beautiful
You seek perfection, running in no certain direction
Maybe if her lipstick on your collar wasn't such a good look for you
& as she placed the loaded
gun in his hands she aimed
it at her head "Do me
this one favour" She
whispered "And i swear to
love you f o r e v e r
And she wishes it all could have ended
with those three little words
And all these signs of endings
Pushing down until it hurts
You had her wrapped around your fingers
And it's clear to me now
And it seems ,unconciously
You're not wanting to let go
And i think her heart's stuck
In a game of tug-o-war
And the questions unasked
are starting to create scars
she looks so gorgeous in the mirror
Writen across het forehead are excusses
Is that how she come off to you?
Probabally because she's such a good actress
Every pill she takes
brings her one step closer to her goal
Not to stall and not to feel
To love again, nothing at all
AND WITH A SUDDEN CHANGE OF SUBJECT
THE SCENE CHANGEs IN HER LIFE OF MAKE PRETEND
with the cold creeping in now
she finds all doors are locked
but all is fine with razors & pills
for they help to ease the shock
the fight against the heartfelt tears
have her choking on her hate
& as she dies she sings a song
of dreams , hapiness & faith
her story has no climax
and the pictures all turned black
reading upon the frayed pages
only make her want to go back
her head is full of thoughts
& her hands are stained with red
she crosses her fingers, closes her eyes
and wishes over and over for death
her cries no longer muffled
in fact they're for all to hear
but no one pays a notion
it's so easy to live in fear
those who do not fear it,
will soon not die
so she trys to imagine
all the things that go boom in the night
another enters now
with a tray full of pills
she swallows unwillingly
each one making her more ill
she hopes he'll feel her heart someday
as the razor breaks the skin
for he's damned her to this awful game
where she's unable to win
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[saturday
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i'm not ready to do a real update just yet for fear of screaming at sevral people, so i'll just do this thing.kk?kk.
You are
[ ] really short under 5'2
[x] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7''more medium then short
[ ] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall 6'1" - ^
[ ] blonde
[x] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] brown
[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[x] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] bluish/gray- eyed
[ ] glasses
[ ] contact
[ ] braces
[x] piercings - hopefull belly button in maine ;OO0o0o
[ ] tattoos
[ ] short hair
[ ] med. hair
[x] long hair
Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] Beaner
[ ] Mexican
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[x] english
[x] dutch
[x] french
[x] german
[x] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[x] canadian- & PROUD BABY YEA
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] Native American
[ ] welsh
[ ] Russian
[ ] British
[ ] Swedish
[ ] African
[ ] Peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] Czech-Slovakian
[ ] norwegian
[ ] ukrainian
[ ] hawain
[ ] Albanian
[ ] Austrian
[x] i dont know
Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[x] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[x] blue
[x] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ]All colors
[ ]rainbow
Some sports/physical things you HAVE done? [That I've taken classes for, or just done]
[x] soccer
[x] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[x] swimming
[ ] softball
[?] wrestling manager - like just wrestled. but not cause i liked it. cause i wanted to go to the mall after the termament, during school hours. ;)
[x] gymnastics
[x] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music (drumming, piano, singing, bass etc...)..
[x] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] tennis
[ ] volleyball
[x] martial arts
Your personality is sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[ ] shy - just not confident about some things
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[x] fun loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[x] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow
The music you like is?
[x] classic rock
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[x] metal
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[/] hiphop - to dance to
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[x] punk
[ ] reggae
[/] emo -some i guess
[ ] Latin
[x]hardcore
[x] ska
[ ] 80's
[x] indie
[x] screamo
[ ] reggaeton
[ ]..not really sure
The pets you have had?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chicken
[ ] horse
[x] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] none
[ ] turtle
[x] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] other
Clothes you like to wear are?
[ ] plain tshirts
[x] sweatshirts/hoodies
[x] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] pj pants
[x] boxers
[x] underwear
[x] dresses
[x] mini skirts
[x] medium skirts
[ ] long skirts
[ ] watches
[x] hoop earring(s)
[x] long earring(s)
[ ] polos
[x] flip flops
[x] halter tops
[x] stilletos
[x] band tshirts
[/] shorts - sometimes i guess
[x] boots
[x] arm-warmers
[x] corsets
[x] club/cute shirts/tanktops/etc.
[x] baby tees
[ ] ECKO Unltd.
[ ] K-swiss
[ ] G-unit..Shady Ltd.
[/] abercrombie
You're mostly labeled as?
[x]goth - just because people at my schools are idiots & think that since i wore a black skirt with a black top i'm 'gothic' =slaps them all=
[x] emo-stupid school
[ ] indie
[x] prep
[x] punk -again stupid school
[ ] ghetto/gangsta
[ ] Rudeboy
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[x] ditzy
[x] hyper
[x] happy
[ ] slutty
[x] suicidal
[ ] poser
[ ] not sure.
[ ] everything
[ ] kandy kid
[ ] Redneck
[ ] DRUGGiE
[ ] jock
[ ] your own style
You eat?
[ ] dessert
[ ] no meat
[x] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods -just had a twinkie for lunch-
[/] a lot of carbs - i don't know xD
[x] meat
[x] salad
[/] seafood - i like shrimp
A typical friday night...
[x] mall with friends
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club - haha i wish
[x] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hangin out w/ your bf - do daydreams count? XD
[ ]hangin out w/ your GF
[ ] working for $$ while your friends are out having fun!
Online, you use:
[x] lol
[x] sup
[x] =D
[x] lmao
[x] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] jk
[ ] ttyl
[ ] lylas/lylab - what does that even mean?
[x] g2g
[x] bbl
[x] brb
[ ] ^.^ (in board tags)
[ ] T_T
[x] xD
[/] Umm.... - uhm . uhmuhmuhmuhmuhm
[x] hah
[x] heh
[ ] i think i might still be stoned
[ ] oof
[ ] un
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[friday
july 22, 2005
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Sooo...ya. I'm just confused. About a lot of things right now. a lot . YOU just keep con fucking fusing me. wtf? make up your mind. & if your mind is where i think it is , i hate you even more. You need to stop being a perfect mofo & stfu & like me already. just do it. kay. it'll make things A LOT easier. kthnx. & you thnx for being there for me through everything :) & accepting everything . & for getting up early early early just to talk to me before i leave for four days ♥♥♥♥
Today i ate breakfast =O & didn't feel sick! it's probabally from having one thing to eat yesturday xD idk it's all good. I whatched like ten minutes of tv & it was on some africa animal thingy. & they were trying to lead this baby elephant to it's mom but it would always follow the worker people. so they like luered the poor thing with a jeep to his mom & his mom hit him really hard with her trunk :( i was like what a bitch & charlie told me to stop calling stuff bitches & whores & hos & i said i call them as i see it...ho...& then he took the x-box :( i didn't even use it anyway so it's all good xDD.
ILLNEVERBREAKYOURELBOECAUSEILOVEYOU lmfao snuffles <3
Brooke is going to the full year of national ballet :( which means she won't be attending BMPS. I wish i got a hip hop opertunity like that xP. I'm going to miss her. No one else will. Not even sabby i don't think. They want her gone so they can like be closer to the top of the popular chicks. fuck them all.
SIX FLAGS TODAY TILL I HAVE NO IDEA :D . I have american money. it's halarious as fuck. i know canadian money is the odd one, but it's so cool lmao. money's so weird.
leave me i miss you messages if you love && miss me :D.
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